since all my usernames seemed to have evaporated... this is what i wrote on fb. i do think that there are more representative scenes these days and thats important to me, but like i say here - i at least felt okay sorting my shit out here and that was really important for this very queer thought-i-was-a-boy to now a pretty lezzy trans girl.
"I know there's some criticism (some of it very valid, some of it just 2010s griping) around the whole scene and the label, but while I'm 100% for the decision made and fully support it, there's a big part of me that's sad that Plan-It-X is closed and shuttering in the next few months. Honestly, it helped create a scene and a place where, growing up in the south/rural areas often in a military "community" and tough guy music scenes, I felt like I could be not masculine, I could be gay/queer/wonkygender/a woman, where I could have some fucking feelings and not tough-guy it out. Thank god I found some torrents of some of those first records, and more importantly thank god I was near Pensacola where a lot of bands came through and have at least a little of that sensibility diffuse across the state line (at least through people I knew), and thank god I got to meet people and make connections, some of whom are still friends today and I've spent a lot of time with and been very close to and intimate with. It's meant a lot. I know there are more diverse scenes now, and I'm so fucking happy about that, they're needed and important. I'm just saying that was my first and was what I needed in a place and time I was in. All things die and that's fine, let it be put to rest. But it's a good excuse to think about them."